![]() That was the kicker, right? We only had ourselves to blame. Because that was exactly what we'd given up. No amount of designer clothes could fill the void of a life lost. The ones who were waking up from the spell a bit, who were seeing the repercussions of our rash actions. There were more of the ones like me, these days. That title always went to the newest one of us, the one whose blood was fresher, whose enthusiasm was more contagious, who was still so caught up in their infatuation that they fell into bed with them all night long. Until I got old or sick, when my blood wouldn't taste as good anymore. Then, when he was done taking all of that, he took the only thing I had left. He took my future, he took away love and motherhood and a career, he took away daylight. There were beautiful homes, lavish parties, jewels, my every human need taken care of. Then made me acutely aware that I could never have it. That was the double-edged sword of this deal, wasn't it? But that was simply because, at the time, I hadn't known there could be something else out there for me. I never thought I would regret it, would want something else. So when he asked for one thing from me, I wanted him to have it. He made me feel like family, like I finally had a place in the world. Then someone came along who made me feel seen, loved, and wanted. Young and stupid was a phrase designed just for me, it seems. See, I made my mistake when I was just eighteen years old. I barely understood the meaning of that word anymore. That was the beauty of it all, wasn't it? Free will. No, you couldn't take something back, or undo anything, but life always gave you a chance to turn things around, to make it right, to choose a different path.
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